It's you I need.

I get stressed, it happens to me.

I get depressed, it happens to me.

Then I have difficulty breathing, it happens to me.

If, someone always knew, and always understood. I, can't promise you the world, but I can promise loyalty.

Am I still needed on this planet?

3:00 am

It's 3:00 AM in the morning and I still can't get to sleep. All week long I've been having interviews after interviews, so much so that I have really exhausted myself out during the daytimes. At night however, it's a whole different story, it wouldn't even matter whether I hadn't slept for an entire day, my body just goes into "owl mode". And I end up staying up till the wee hours of the morning. God do help me change this annoying habit of mine.

Boyfriend's snoring pretty loudly, trying not to shut him up by rolling him/giving him a nudge though. He's caught the flu bug :'( 

He's awfully adorable when he's asleep - adorable any other time too, but not as much. I love looking at him. Because it's not just his pretty face but I will be hit with this pang of overwhelming calmness, easiness and joy when my eyes rest upon his face. Also, I see my future. 

Life & reality at it's best.

Goodnight.

Brian

Every girl has always had their dream guy wished & moulded in their mind from the day they started being attracted to the opposite sex till the day they had their first breakup. And it continues till they actually got him.

After all the "trials and errors", I finally met him, and I must say it really is a huge sigh of relief. That dream guy who seemed too good to be true and I who always deemed myself as unlucky could wind up someone so great as himself. It isn't even the case of 'I think I got him' but 'I know he's mine'. And again, thankful, lucky & blessed.

He's considerate, he's thoughtful, he's proactive, he's caring, he's a filial son, he's generous with his time, he's not calculative, he's kind, he's sensitive, he's smart, he's good looking, he's serious about me, he listens, he supports, he adores me, he loves his family, he loves my family, he understands, he goes out of his way to make me feel good, he generally surprises me all the time, he smells so good, he has a smile that is so heart-stopping, he loves me with his all, he is all a girl wants and more. 

He is all I want & more.

Yes, he has his flaws, but his good towers over all his flaws. 

So. What else more can I wish for? Nothing.

I love him. I truly do. And never once have I felt this way with anyone but for the first time ever,

I am the luckiest girl in the world.

I love you Brian L.Y.M.

Finally

So here I am again, updating this neglected & sometimes forgotten space. 

You know how fairytales never come true? Or how everyone always says that "the right one will come along, and when they do, you'll know it"? 

I've finally met this special someone, Brian, and I've never felt happier or luckier. Heck, I've never felt lucky, but now, I'm just so thankful and lucky. Really :)

I've never dated a friend, and I am so glad I took a leap of faith. Now the next step awaits us, but no matter what or how long it takes till the next step, I'm enjoying the ride and loving it.

END WORK NOW LA FUCK. 

:'(

Am I sad?

Truth is I really miss L's presence, he was a great friend, great company and was always there for me. I felt so loved when he was around, and with that, I feel that every girl should have a guy like him. About J... Sigh.

Friends wise, I love the YOLO group, awesome bunch of people I've ever met, plus point is that my bestfriends in the world are in it. Any activity done with these awesome people will make your day/night, Shuyi, Dorisa, Vanessa, Wanling, Angel, Brian & Daniel. ♡

I am contented.

Much needed update

So it's already Jan 9th 2013 and many things have changed around here. I'm single now, and it is fine. Anyway, the point of this post is that I really have to emphasize on how unlucky I actually am, sometimes I just turn a blind eye to this little mishaps we call 'accidents'. I don't recall a time where I have said "omg, I am/feel like the luckiest girl in the world/alive". No, never. Never have I felt that way in me, and no one has made me feel lucky either. I guess happiness comes with luckiness? They are just dragging each other along on a string. Okay, I'm jibber jabbering.

Bye!

3:51am

I think my body clock is finally back to normal. Chilling while waiting for the time to go back to school/army.

Went to the ACS(B)'s carnival on Saturday, and helllllllllll....... it SUCKED. Really badly.

Took pictures when we had too much time to waste.

Day 195

We've went through so much and I'm glad we're still as strong as ever. I love you, Jordan. I hope I won't get hurt anymore though, 'cause it would just be too much.

Truly hurt.

I should give 2 fucks about my feelings and more for yours.